New Year
Written by IainMSums up how I'm feeling right now..
I asked with diligence for a single encounter
I asked with pompous readiness, knowing the answer
This answer you gave has shot me straight down
So I smile this beaten, downtrodden smile
And edge into another days sorrow and another years frown
The time we’d have had would have been sweet and divine
But could have been’s won’t help, it was my turn to shine
I’m lost inside, the time it just passes
Not healing at all, abrasive and trapping
No life-force restored only character broken and shattered and bent
Faith shattered by surprises and fraudulent masses
Amazed by the two faced irregular partisans of existence fleeting
You feel your heart beat faster, and then it’s taken away
By potential allies who are lost in the inevitable foray
And all I see is black, cold, a never ending void of self loathing
So I march on with my affront to the world
A new year beckons with opportunities arising
The same things will happen, another let down and another birthday
Another chance to see success will slip through my fingers
And I’ll have even less to say than I ever have before..